I haven't felt this excited in a long, long time. I love my LS, and I love Kendrick Lamar.
I was four inches away from touching his hand! Lol, I was so close.
These are the moments I live for. 

Teedra Moses "Be Your Girl"

This goes out to my, future-you.

The melody just sets the mood. It gives me the chills 'cuz this is how I get when I know I'm feelin' somebody.
I know my feelings and when I'm into somebody enough to boo them up.

That's why I stay single, 'cuz I stay true to myself. 

I never knew how good it felt to sit and watch tv while I have a quick dinner for 15 minutes.
I never knew that until a few months ago.


My friends and family tell me I'm crazy, and laugh as they ask if I ever sleep.
I certainly do sleep. I make sure I have time to, yet I still feel restless.


It wasn't until one of my friends and I had this conversation about working out. He asked me, "Do you have a resting day... when you don't do anything but just rest for the whole day?"
I kept thinking to myself... If I'm not at school, I'm at work. If I'm not doing either, I'm studying or doing homework. If not, I'm doing sorority stuff. If not, I'm running errands. If not, I'm working out. If not, I'm making time for faces I haven't seen in awhile. If not, I'm going to random bars/restaurants/other adventures I haven't been to.

...and I kept thinking to myself and realized I absolutely don't. WHO DOES?

I'm surrounded by people who have far less sleep than I do. I know a handful of people who work more than I do... that I didn't understand that question until I took a step back and thought about everything.

I haven't seen a movie at the theater in over 5 months. I can't remember the last time I watched tv at home. I haven't read a book for enjoyment. I don't keep up with blogs as much as I used to (my favorite thing to do when I have the spare time). I don't keep up with The Walking Dead. I don't dress up nor wear make-up like I used. I cannot even recall the last time I went to the mall to shop for myself.

All these things that I used to do, that seemed normal do not seem normal to me anymore. When I see people sit and watch TV on Monday nights, I think they're crazy to even have the time to do that...




I've become so immune to something that seemed impossible. MIND OVER MATTER. MIND OVER MATTER. MIND OVER MATTER. I think I'm okay and that I can handle it all only to realize that I'm really not THAT okay. I even think my body knows itself more than I know myself, that it's slowly malfunctioning on me.

But I can't stop, won't stop. I'll rest when I'm dead.

However, I cannot wait til this month is over with.

  

Roommate: Where you going?
Me: No where.


It's been a minute since I just had time for myself... to just put on some make-up for nothing.
Happy Thursday, almost Friday :D

My mother always told me that I wouldn't ever be able to survive on my own because I never cooked. I was worried myself that I would never be able to make a meal for my future husband, his family, and our kids. I knew I was spoiled-- I had food on the table, got everything taken care of, I rarely had to wash the dishes, etc. I swore I wouldn't ever be able to cook, not that I was unwilling to. Not to mention that I wouldn't have the patience for it.

Well, here I am! Cooking up the storm for the past two years, and I love it. I love sharing my food and I realized it makes me happy to be in the kitchen. I am finally making the promise to myself that I would be that women who could cook Thai, Hmong, Italian, Filipino, Vietnamese, Spanish, etc. food. I am excited to learn more! Shoutout to those who helped me, and those who shared their recipes.

Green Curry Mussels & Three-Taste Fish with Fried Calamari

Mahi-Mahi salad with lentils and eggplants

Phad Bai Kapow (Thai Basil) & Thai Noodle Soup

Sinigang, menudo, adobo, and stir-fried Hmong dish with tofu/tomatoes/etc.

Milk Chocolate Chip Pancakes

Corn & Stuffed Pizza with ground turkey

Traditional Hmong food. Boiled chicken, stuffed angel wings

Baked ziti with ground turkey

Ice cream with pomegranate seeds and pineapples

Chicken Katsu

Puerto Rican Shrimp Fried Rice and Plantains

Chicken wings and shepherd's pie

More chicken wings with special sauce :D

BBQ ribs that melt off the bone

Up to this day, I cannot emphasize how one of the best spontaneous trips I've ever taken was to DC. It was that moment when I was so proud to be Hmong. I got to meet a handful of humble people who took me in as if I were no stranger. They took great care of my friend and me the whole weekend to make sure we got around safe and sound. Seriously, their house was my house. Not only that, but I enjoyed being in their company. It was such a positive atmosphere, where I learned so much about culture, history, and little things here and there. I miss it. I miss it, a lot. I got kind of sad knowing that my brother left that place.

The highlight of my weekend there was meeting Doualy Xaykaothao, a Hmong woman who works for NPR in SE Asia. She is my idol! It was so random to meet her. She has this charisma that I cannot explain. Sweet, humble, bubbly, social, smart, etc. She could spark up a conversation. Knowing how well-rounded she is, she never made anybody feel as if they were lower than she. She is living the life, waking up to a job that she loves, and being surrounded by cultural shock. 

I started thinking about all these other idols of mine (other than Beyonce)

Audrey Hepburn, UNICEF ambassador. Many girls like her because she is a fashion icon and is all over photos. It bothers me because I know many girls never watched her films other than "Breakfast at Tiffany's," and do not know about her UNICEF experience.

Anuradha Koirala, social activist in Nepal helping sex trafficking victims and also recognized as a CNN Hero in 2010.

Rebel. Think outside of the box. Get out of your comfort zone. Expand your horizon. Stand up for what you love. Strive for what you want. And be the change that you want to see.

“If you don't step out of your comfort zone and face your fears, the number of situations that make you uncomfortable will keep growing. ” Theo Pistorius

She's better.
You're cuter.
She sounds smart.
Daaamn, he downgraded.


There's always going to be somebody who is prettier, smarter, uglier, dumber, nicer, or crazier than you are.
Your friends are always going to back you up because they know YOU. Everybody has different opinions.


You just need to stop, look at the mirror and tell yourself, "Shit, I'm the best."


'Cuz that's what I do.
That's why nobody can handle me.
And that's why, I don't care about how pretty, smart, ugly, dumb, nice, or crazy somebody is... because I know I'm still going to proceed with my life to greater heights with or without them.
To me, there's no such thing as a downgrade or upgrade with a past or a future.
All I know is that I am a catalyst.

DASSIT.