Thursday, January 30, 2014

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."
-Oscar Wilde


And honestly, I just want to live.
To die knowing that I did live, how I want it to be.
Die a story, a worthy story to be told.
Let's get serious, but also, let the adventures continue, God and 2014. 

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Along with G-Eazy, I found Skizzy Mars. I love their song "Pay for Me."
And thisss. 

Yesterday my niece and I made Russian Tea Cakes (with a hint of Hershey's Kisses), and had a mini tea party.
Such a creative girl- she made us name tags and played "smooth music" on youtube for us.
<3




My favorite breeds: pit bulls. 
One of my friends used to tell me, "You are not a shih tzu! You're a tamed pit bull!"
Maybe that's why I tend to favor them more, or perhaps, people always talk down on them!
They're the cutest and most lovable dogs. I always beg their owners to let them out the cage and play with them. LOVE THEM!


Ladies night-in last Friday, and we cooked!
What's on the menu?
Sushi bake, chicken parmesan pizza, and veggie pizza.
Of course, you cannot forget about our salad bar.
Bon appetite!

"You only live once, but if 
you do it right, once is 
enough."
-Mae West

Hippie Sabotage "Stay High"

Ever since my summer trip to Cali, I've been obsessed with chill dubstep/trap music.
Anything chill, I love.
Shout out to NorCal/Stanford! 

G-Eazy ft Dominique Le Jeune "Marilyn"

My new favorite underground rapper.
I don't know how I didn't discover him until later on.
He's going to be on tour!

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Dreams are Dreams

I'm one of those crazy people who always ponders on their dreams for the next day or two. I haven't had many vivid dreams in a long time. This morning I had the most terrifying dream ever. It was one of those dreams that you remember how horrible you felt... And the  scene  itself. I don't think I've had such an intense dream with manipulation, human threatening experiment, gun shootings and rescuing children before.

It scares me. I just hope my families in SEA are safe and secure.

I googled my dream:
 "Rescue
To dream that you are being rescued or rescue others represents an aspect of yourself that has been neglected or ignored. You are trying to find a way to express this neglected part of yourself. Alternatively, it symbolizes an subconscious cry for help. Perhaps you are too proud in your waking life to ask for assistance.
In particular, to dream that you rescue someone from drowning indicates that you have successfully acknowledged certain emotions and characteristics that is symbolized by the drowning victim."

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

What a great way to start my morning. 
Thanks to my friend who still thought of me while she's in Germany. My old love for Bob Marley. One of my most favorite and heart-warming songs ever. 
Most of all, I just love dancers.  
I can't get over this choreo. 

Monday, January 6, 2014

I don't want people to remember me for the way I looked, or the way I dressed.



I want them to remember me for me.
My obstacles. My future success. My experiences. My life.
My laughter. My expressions. My advices. My voice.
My opinions. My writing. My tastes. My thoughts.
My insecurities. My memories. My feelings. My soul.


<3

Thailand Reflection

I didn't do a good job at updating my adventures in Thailand, but I think no matter what I post, pictures, videos, and stories will never do justice. It only shows clips or a certain perspective of my 5 month trip that felt like a one-year trip.

2013 was my year of travels, but I got tired of traveling. I got tired of doing touristy things and just enjoying the moment for a quick second. Not only that, it was my year of challenge- to try something new and different all the time. It was like a food-tasting lifestyle that year. With that being said, I wanted something more. Something much more challenging and life-changing rather than leisurely fun.

I'll make my recap short and simple as possible with the lessons I've learned from Thailand and about myself.

1.) I've briefly read this book my niece made me read while I visited her in Minnesota. If there is one quote that always stuck to me, it's "You have to go in right." It's true. If you learn to take away your "comfort" and just accept what that society is, you'll adapt much more. Not only that, you learn a lot more. Some people think that they understand what they hear, but they don't. They're not listening, they're still interpreting in terms they understand from BACK at home. Leave what you know behind, and enter into something you DON'T KNOW.

2.) Quit comparing and complaining, or you'll never enjoy the ride. All the frustrations is the joy of it all.

3.) Be humble, but don't be stupid. There is a time when you can respect your surroundings, but there is a time when you HAVE to be aggressive.

4.) Be willing. Be willing to try new food, new things, see new places, meet new faces.

5.) Slow down. If you're always in a rush, you'll never notice the beauty around you. Even if you do notice it, you'll never learn how to appreciate it. Meditate while you walk. Examine EVERYTHING around you and try to remember it all because sooner or later, you'll be leaving it behind.

6.) All the things you DO want to see end up being overrated, but all the things you didn't care for or didn't know will be your most memorable ones.

7.) Just because you visited somewhere for a weekend or a week, that doesn't make you an expert of the place. It took me a couple of weeks to call Thailand my home and to truly love it. Even after five months, I feel like I haven't explored everything yet. I still had so much more to embrace. I have my own opinions on Thailand, but I don't expect people to follow those opinions. I'd rather have them see it for themselves. Scratch that. No, I'd rather have people EXPERIENCE it for themselves.

8.) I love underrated places and things. Most of all, I love seeing the beauty behind the damages/slums/ghettos because people rarely give it credit. I'll go where people refuse to go, and I'll snicker at the places everybody wants to go. Commercialization is overrated, and yes, I must be a freakin' hypebeast.

9.) If you know me, I'm a quiet person, but I can be very social when I want to be. It can also be the other way around-- I am a social person, but I can be a quiet person when I want to be. I've learned something new about me: even though I'm not as loud, cool, or talkative as others, I make friends easily-- and I have great, trusting relationships with these friends who turn out to be my family.

10.) Everything is cross cultural. Everything is socially constructed. I think it made me MORE annoyed of people and society, even myself. We complain about service, food, the way we and others look, etc. BUT we fail to realize how many people out there are struggling, starving, and are in physical pain. We fail to realize how people can't help with what and how they're born with-- criticizing ain't gonna help either.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Familiar faces: Let's spare time for all

I wish those surrounded by family knew how it felt like to be without family. Most of time, maybe it's us who choose to live far away from family so it is our sacrifice, however, that doesn't mean we should be the only ones making an extra effort all the time. 

This weekend we will be visiting my niece, Michelle, in Nebraska. I'm really excited. I have always told myself I need to go visit her before she graduates because I know how crazy girls are. They love to pull out that passive aggressive card. "It's okay. I understand that people are busy and have no money." While they're saying that, they're probably thinking, "But you have time and money to go to other places though!" Not that she's crazy, but I know how it feels like... to hear family members tell you they're visiting you. 

It took us five years to visit her. 
And honestly. That's sad. 
We get so caught up and find alternatives or excuses. 

If I could choose one thing I was bitter about, it would be that I didn't get enough visits. 
Especially during the time when I needed people the most. 
Or when I asked people to and they never did. 
Most of all, those who complained about me not coming around enough, yet they never visited me.
And if they did, they didn't visit me, they went to Orlando, and I took the extra 2 hours to visit them.
The ones who did visit me were my best friends.
However, my most favorite visitors were my cousins and nieces. 
It wasn't the fact that they came, but the fact that they put in some time, consideration, and effort to see me-- to see MY WORLD. 
I love hosting people and showing people around. 

I don't think I would have learned to appreciate visits or understand the value of visiting others if I never lived in Florida. I try my best to visit those who I love, and make up for not attending to their events. Sometimes I still suck at it, but I really do try because everybody loves seeing faces. Familiar faces.