Friday, December 7, 2012
Home is where the heart is.
I cannot wait to go home for the holidays.
"I guess I should have forgot where I came from."
We hustle hard.
We hustle hard.
Beyonce: Stop Sign
My iPhone randomly shuffled to this song this morning. I forgot all about my Sasha Fierce summer days, but when I heard this song, it reminded me why I love Beyonce so much.
This song just gives me the chills.
Sometimes you can only give so much to somebody and put in a certain amount of effort into a relationship, but if it's not growing, or if they're not willing to walk beside you, you just have to drop it. You'll wake up beside them one morning and realize that maybe it's not that you're unhappy with them, it's the fact that you feel your life has slowed down. You can set aside the differences, and try to accept or work around with them, but you cannot slow yourself down for somebody especially if they choose to take their own road. You'll then realize that you forgot about one important person: yourself. So I always emphasize to close family/friends to love themselves first before they offer their love to somebody else.
Sometimes you can only give so much to somebody and put in a certain amount of effort into a relationship, but if it's not growing, or if they're not willing to walk beside you, you just have to drop it. You'll wake up beside them one morning and realize that maybe it's not that you're unhappy with them, it's the fact that you feel your life has slowed down. You can set aside the differences, and try to accept or work around with them, but you cannot slow yourself down for somebody especially if they choose to take their own road. You'll then realize that you forgot about one important person: yourself. So I always emphasize to close family/friends to love themselves first before they offer their love to somebody else.
"When you're happy, you enjoy the music, but when you're sad, you understand the lyrics."
Monday, December 3, 2012
I am now obsessed with HJ-Story: Messages of Love. I downloaded the app, I know-- how corny of me. I just had to. You have no idea how looking at these little drawings made me feel. It made me feel like a youngin' all over again.
Have you ever come across some things that reminded you exactly of the little things from the past? Well, this is one of them.
One of my most favorite gifts was from my ex on our first Valentine's Day: Little Mermaid book because he knew my love for Ariel, drawings because he was an artist, Sour Skittles because it was his favorite candy, and the most thoughtful handwritten letter because he knew how much that stuff meant to me. He always liked to draw me random things that looked EXACTLY like these characters. And the last Valentine's Day gift he gave me were these classic print-outs of "Love Is..." comics with personal messages on the back.
And it's things like that, that make me realize how the fancy restaurants and materialistic gifts can never emulate to personalized hand-made gifts that truly come from the heart. My best friend's husband told me that you know a man is really into you if he uses his time to be crafty for his lady. I don't know if it's true, but I sure do know I only get crafty (and bake all night) for special guys.
Have you ever come across some things that reminded you exactly of the little things from the past? Well, this is one of them.
One of my most favorite gifts was from my ex on our first Valentine's Day: Little Mermaid book because he knew my love for Ariel, drawings because he was an artist, Sour Skittles because it was his favorite candy, and the most thoughtful handwritten letter because he knew how much that stuff meant to me. He always liked to draw me random things that looked EXACTLY like these characters. And the last Valentine's Day gift he gave me were these classic print-outs of "Love Is..." comics with personal messages on the back.
And it's things like that, that make me realize how the fancy restaurants and materialistic gifts can never emulate to personalized hand-made gifts that truly come from the heart. My best friend's husband told me that you know a man is really into you if he uses his time to be crafty for his lady. I don't know if it's true, but I sure do know I only get crafty (and bake all night) for special guys.
So kawaii. I wish I could be young like that all over again.
Most of all, I love how she used to find time to call me 3-4 in the morning just to check up on me always saying the right things to pick me up back on my feet. She always sees the utmost potential in me when I fail to notice my own strengths.
Love you.
I am the pickiest person when it comes to guys.
It's Michael-Jackson-bad.
I hate it. My family and friends hate it.
You can be the most handsome guy, but if I look down at your kicks, I'm not feelin' it.
You can be the FLYEST guy on earth, but if you don't know what you're doing with your life, I don't know what I'm going to do with you.
We can have the best conversations here and there, but if you don't like the same music as I do, I feel like we just lost a whole connection.
I sound picky when I'm really not, because by the end of the day, I end up with dudes that don't meet up to all my expectations. They may even be FAR from my standards.
When I think about it though, I'm a pretty simple girl, but simple is too complicated at the same time. If you make me laugh, like to eat/drink, have your own style, ambition and confidence, I'm in love.
Somehow, I just can't seem to get ALL of that in one-- and it drives me crazy.
It's funny because people complain about how picky and single I am, but then they complain about the guys I'm with. "He is nothing, but skin and bones!" "He got anger problems. I'm scared for you!" "I DON'T LIKE HIM!" "No more [insert names], please!"
And I always get a "You can do better."
Eventually the guys I'm with tell me, "You deserve better."
Everybody else convinces me, "You deserve nothing but the best."
I'm sitting here thinking to myself, trying to be logical about this... I hold those statements dear to my heart, but I don't even know how THE BEST can even exist. I know I can't have it all, but I know it has to exist somewhere. It shouldn't matter what people say, but I know I can be blind and stupid sometimes... and we all end up laughing about how there is something wrong with every guy I talk to.
So, I'm just wondering if I accept the fact that there are exceptions, or if I just end up settling for less sometimes.
This is why I choose to be single. It's much safer.
(Minus the fact that I have family and friends who threaten about harming the next guys I talk to.)
It's Michael-Jackson-bad.
I hate it. My family and friends hate it.
You can be the most handsome guy, but if I look down at your kicks, I'm not feelin' it.
You can be the FLYEST guy on earth, but if you don't know what you're doing with your life, I don't know what I'm going to do with you.
We can have the best conversations here and there, but if you don't like the same music as I do, I feel like we just lost a whole connection.
I sound picky when I'm really not, because by the end of the day, I end up with dudes that don't meet up to all my expectations. They may even be FAR from my standards.
When I think about it though, I'm a pretty simple girl, but simple is too complicated at the same time. If you make me laugh, like to eat/drink, have your own style, ambition and confidence, I'm in love.
Somehow, I just can't seem to get ALL of that in one-- and it drives me crazy.
It's funny because people complain about how picky and single I am, but then they complain about the guys I'm with. "He is nothing, but skin and bones!" "He got anger problems. I'm scared for you!" "I DON'T LIKE HIM!" "No more [insert names], please!"
And I always get a "You can do better."
Eventually the guys I'm with tell me, "You deserve better."
Everybody else convinces me, "You deserve nothing but the best."
I'm sitting here thinking to myself, trying to be logical about this... I hold those statements dear to my heart, but I don't even know how THE BEST can even exist. I know I can't have it all, but I know it has to exist somewhere. It shouldn't matter what people say, but I know I can be blind and stupid sometimes... and we all end up laughing about how there is something wrong with every guy I talk to.
So, I'm just wondering if I accept the fact that there are exceptions, or if I just end up settling for less sometimes.
This is why I choose to be single. It's much safer.
(Minus the fact that I have family and friends who threaten about harming the next guys I talk to.)
NorthFace X Supreme
If you're from the North, you know all about that NorthFace, and if you're into streetwear, you know all about that Supreme. So need I say more, I'm just drooling over these jackets! Sometimes I wish I were a dude because they always look crispy in the flyest gear.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
I had a remarkable experience participating in the Miss Noppamas 2012-2013 Pageant at the Wat Mongkolratanaram. I didn't place anything, but the greatest prize was getting surprise visits from my sisters, family, friends, and coworkers to come support me. Most of all, getting supportive messages via facebook, texts, etc. from everybody else. It meant so much to me. I also had fun meeting these young ladies, who were either local residents or foreign exchange students. Always do things for the experience, and make memories with as many people as you can!
My favorite part of the night: experiencing Loi Krathong in the states. I am for sure that I'm spending my last semester in Thailand now.
My favorite part of the night: experiencing Loi Krathong in the states. I am for sure that I'm spending my last semester in Thailand now.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
Rihanna: Stay
It's not much of a life you're living. It's not just something you take, it's given.
Friday, November 16, 2012
Heart of Glass
I'm so proud of myself! I finally replaced my broken iPhone back case all by myself... a year later! Bad news: now the front of my phone has a small crack. Ergh. But I cannot wait to receive my phone case soon. Amazon, you are so good to me! $4 vs $100.
Nothing excites me more than finding treasures that people consider as trash! I could splurge on a $1,000 luxury purse if I wanted, but it could never feel the same as getting a hold of GOOD DEALS!
I absolutely love thrifting on rare occasions. It's the only time I recollect myself, if I'm not blogging or listening to music. Thrifting therapy, I would call it.
So, here's what made my day: Top $4. Levi jeans $6. Spiegel pumps $5. Laced dress $5.
I absolutely love thrifting on rare occasions. It's the only time I recollect myself, if I'm not blogging or listening to music. Thrifting therapy, I would call it.
So, here's what made my day: Top $4. Levi jeans $6. Spiegel pumps $5. Laced dress $5.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Woman of the Year 2012
Selena Gomez is Glamour's Woman of the Year 2012. I was awed by how much she has grown for the past few years. She is growing into an incredibly beautiful young lady. From being that witty Disney character of Wizards of Waverly Place to becoming an iconic figure, she has come such a long way. Young and successful leaders always inspire me. I just thought I'd share some of my favorite photos of this month's edition highlighting her transformation as a bubbly young girl to an elegant woman donning on evening gowns and rouged lips.
Need I say more, I just love her!
Today is that day.
That day when I determine the rest of my college career, and map out the rest of my life. I have been freaking out and panicking because it seems too good to be true. As much as I am ready to leave the sunshine state, I don't know if I'm ready for goodbye. This moment sneaked up on me.
Better yet, I have the slightest idea of where exactly I want to go and what I want to do.
All I know is that I need to finish my full semester at USF with a bang, meet as many people as I can, build more memories, and cherish every moment of it. Looking back, the past four years have constructed a stronger and better me. These were my toughest years when I learned how to sacrifice, to be independent, to remain level-headed, and keep forward; however, these past tough four years have provided me a great support system and a growing relationship with friends and family.
When I say I love my life and appreciate everything and everybody, I really mean it.
So I hope this blueprint will be effective as of January 2013: Last full term at USF SPR13. Summer class with a possible internship. Travel. Save money. Move stuff out of apartment to permanent home. Fall 2013: Study abroad in Thailand. Graduate. Fly wherever God has destined me to be at that moment.
*crossing fingers* I can't believe this.
"You may not always end up where you thought you were going, but you will always end up where you were meant to be."
That day when I determine the rest of my college career, and map out the rest of my life. I have been freaking out and panicking because it seems too good to be true. As much as I am ready to leave the sunshine state, I don't know if I'm ready for goodbye. This moment sneaked up on me.
Better yet, I have the slightest idea of where exactly I want to go and what I want to do.
All I know is that I need to finish my full semester at USF with a bang, meet as many people as I can, build more memories, and cherish every moment of it. Looking back, the past four years have constructed a stronger and better me. These were my toughest years when I learned how to sacrifice, to be independent, to remain level-headed, and keep forward; however, these past tough four years have provided me a great support system and a growing relationship with friends and family.
When I say I love my life and appreciate everything and everybody, I really mean it.
So I hope this blueprint will be effective as of January 2013: Last full term at USF SPR13. Summer class with a possible internship. Travel. Save money. Move stuff out of apartment to permanent home. Fall 2013: Study abroad in Thailand. Graduate. Fly wherever God has destined me to be at that moment.
*crossing fingers* I can't believe this.
"You may not always end up where you thought you were going, but you will always end up where you were meant to be."
'Tis the Season to be Trendy!
You don't want to miss this opportunity for an authentic D&B bag. What a perfect way to rock a vintage, leather, red purse to a Christmas party or even if you're just visiting your family for the holiday.
To enter, simply “like” the PaperdollsStore page, then post a photo of your best holiday look on the fanpage wall. The photo with the most likes by 11:59PM Wednesday, November 21st will be declared the winner! Don’t forget to encourage friends and family to vote for your photo, or even to enter their own holiday looks!
Also, visit Paperdoll's FB page for new holiday apparel, let's bundle up!
Also, visit Paperdoll's FB page for new holiday apparel, let's bundle up!
Trick or Treat
The older I am getting, the more I try to take an advantage of the days that pass by, especially the holidays. This Halloween, I made sure it was an eventful one. I dressed up at work, went out to SoHo with my ol' roomies, went to my complex's mini-haunted house. I was so happy to make a successful costume head-piece, and to see others dressed up. Now, I'm anticipating on the rest of the holidays this year!
Sorry for the delay! I have more photos to share, but here's the gist of it.
Lumineers: Hey Ho
I close my eyes for two seconds. Breathe. Smile. And dream on.
I belong with you, you belong with me. You're my sweetheart.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Recap of my NYC Trip
I miss it. Not so much of the place, but the moments I had with my girls.
Bon Chon chicken wings & sake in Korean Town near the Empire State Building
Time Square
Walking around Harlem
Indian food with crazy Christmas lights
Hanging out with Manhattan bars
Late night Korean food
Habab food truck
Thrifting/Shopping in Brooklyn
Rooftop parties
Etc.
I couldn't ask for more.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Monday, October 29, 2012
"People no longer strive to be happy, they simply settle with being the least unhappy. They think it could always be worse, but fail to remember that it can always be better."
I am a fan of the ladies who work at Hellz Bellz. Miss Lawn has been my idol for the past few years and I have been keeping tabs on her team of creative, beautiful women (I promise I'm not a creeper).
When people need to escape, they drink or smoke, dance it off, go jogging-- I, on the other hand, get lost into addicting blogs while I enjoy my eargasmic music.
I realized that this keeps me sane. It makes me say, "YES!" and I just laugh to myself thinking that they couldn't have said it better. I just had to share one of my favorite bloggers who make me realize, I'm not crazy, I'm not too outspoken especially in public display; I'm only human and thank God she said it for me! Ladies and gents, here we have: Abi with her infamous blog, girlsarethenewboys. (Click the quote for my favorite recent post of hers)
I am a fan of the ladies who work at Hellz Bellz. Miss Lawn has been my idol for the past few years and I have been keeping tabs on her team of creative, beautiful women (I promise I'm not a creeper).
When people need to escape, they drink or smoke, dance it off, go jogging-- I, on the other hand, get lost into addicting blogs while I enjoy my eargasmic music.
I realized that this keeps me sane. It makes me say, "YES!" and I just laugh to myself thinking that they couldn't have said it better. I just had to share one of my favorite bloggers who make me realize, I'm not crazy, I'm not too outspoken especially in public display; I'm only human and thank God she said it for me! Ladies and gents, here we have: Abi with her infamous blog, girlsarethenewboys. (Click the quote for my favorite recent post of hers)
Look inside of my soul and you can find gold and maybe get rich
Talk too much. I got my drink; I got my music.
Sometimes the perfect song just plays at the perfect time. I love the first verse... Mmm, he couldn't have said it better.
Kendrick Lamar "Bitch, Don't Kill My Vibe"
Save the Tata's!
Since October is almost over, I thought I'd share a few pictures of our long haul of events supporting the tatas. 'Til next year, Breast Fest is over! Thanks for everybody's commitment to make everything happen.
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| Susan G. Komen's Race for the Cure, St. Petersburg 2012 |
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| Kick Off & Silent Date Auction |
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| Silent Date Auction |
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| Carnival |
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| Night Event |
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| Night Event |
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| Glowing in Pink |
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| Making Strides, Tampa 2012 (Even the dog supports!) |
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
How Many Have You Loved?
This concept of love... I could never get a grasp of. I always felt as though it has only come and gone in my life, but it never stayed. It could never remain and grow, but I'll tell you though, I have loved and fallen in love before.
As soon as he mentioned, "when" he loved, those were the exact thoughts that run through my head all the time. I may have been young, but I knew I was in love at that moment in life. That young and innocent love that is now only a nostalgic love that neither of us can touch.
But I had this one particular love that I would not categorize as who, what, when, where, and why. It was a... what if. What if things could have continued, or what if things didn't end and restart the way they did? I used to ask myself-- do I love this kid or do I not? I guess I didn't if I always had to question it while I was with him, but the oddest thing was that I started ask myself if it was possible to love somebody after you have lost them. From that point on, I realized that you don't have to be with somebody or have to know them inside out, to love them because the feeling projects in different ways and in many forms.
And I know it sounds so stupid of me, but it is possible to love somebody that you never really had. I've loved and I've lost.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Pursuit of Happiness
I guess I'll begin by explaining my blog name. First off, it's an old inside joke that only one other person understands but probably forgot. It also goes along the lines of "All that shines isn't always gold... that's why I'd prefer platinum." Basically, even if things aren't perfect, I won't let that keep me from excelling.
And if I had a theme song to my own reality TV show, hands down, it would be Kid Cudi's "Pursuit of Happiness," which was released during a turning point in my life that changed me-- for better and for worse.
"I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold. I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good."
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